Friday, February 11, 2011

Food Wars!

I'm going to post this and hope no one hates me after! lol

I have a problem and wouldn't mind some advice. Unlike a lot of people I don't want or need to lose weight, I'm sure everyone reading this wants to just strangle me right now. Don't jump the gun too quickly. I have to opposite problem. I can't gain weight. I know you all think I'm ridiculous for wanting to gain weight, but hear me out.

Part of the reason for not being able to get pregnant might come from me being underweight. I know I can gain weight I've been 10 lbs heavier before. However since I've "attempted" to gain weight I really don't think I've budged. Right now I'm about 112 lbs and I'm aiming for at least 120 lbs.

Now I say attempt for a reason. I blame a lot of my non-weight gain on my schedule both work and body. For a long time I wouldn't eat breakfast and I'm still not the best at it. I just wouldn't be hungry and unfortunately if I'm not hungry I have a hard time forcing myself to eat. I've tried protein shakes, slim fast (for the calories) ice cream, trail mix, etc.

My work schedule is hard too because I'll either eat breakfast or lunch not both. I go to work and even though they serve free lunch or salads and sandwiches I don't partake. I guess my best reasoning would be that it never sounds appetizing to me because I just ate. That brings me to after work. 9 o'clock. Dinner time, by this point I'm hungry, I've snacked at work but no meals since before work. This is the hardest part. I never know what to eat, and whatever I do eat I have to make it :( I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

A part of me feels like they don't prepare you for marriage very well. Jayson and I have a great relationship, but that's not what I mean. I can never think of anything to eat and I especially don't want to have to think about it at 9pm.

One thing Jayson's been trying to get us to do since we've been married is a menu. I've tried this a few times, but it never sticks. I'll try to come up with even enough things for a week and ask Jayson for some ideas and he has nothing. (I prefer 2 week menus because we never go shopping every week) Anyway he's no help in this menu department and I can't blame him completely because his ideas I've already come up with, but a little help like something he ate when he was younger even would be nice.

So I'm coming to my blog friends for help. How can I gain weight and what can I make for dinner and/or bring to work to eat, and a sandwich gets old :( So I'm sending out my S.O.S. hoping I'll get some new ideas!

Thanks all!

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Blogging Again!

It's been too long!

I just finished posting on my other blog, but I want to attempt keeping them both up to date.

I think this one I'll be more personal on, even though the same people will probably read both. With that I'll assume those reading this will have already read my other blog and are pretty much up to date on our life thus far.

I figure this is the best place to get this out there:

Over a year ago Jayson and I decided we would start try for a baby. We wanted to keep it a secret so when we did get pregnant it would be a surprise to our family and friends. I guess that was where our mistake came in, we couldn't get pregnant. After a year we still wanted to keep it a secret, but we were obviously having issues in this department. We have now started to see a fertility doctor, who has been able to shed some light on our situation. I have a mild case of endometriosis, which could possibly be the issue. Instead of going straight into surgery to remove it, we decided to try a cheaper route of Clomid. This is a pill I take to help ovulate, however after a few months it has proven ineffective. We have now decided to pursue the surgery, before taking the next step, which would be artificial insemination.  

So now that it's out in he open don't be afraid to talk to me about it. I would have come out with it sooner, but in my head it was weird to answer the question: "So when are you guys going to start trying for a baby?" when the answer was "We have been, for over a year and it's not working!" lol

I know it will come unfortunately it's just not as easy for us as it is for others.